I had an ultrasound two days ago, at 11 weeks 6 days, and we found out that Baby B stopped growing at 9 weeks. There is no heartbeat. So I am no longer pregnant with twins.
The good news is that Baby A looks great. His/her heart rate was around 160 bpm.. S/he was sucking on a cute little hand and moving around a lot. It was great to see.
I think one of the worst jobs would be having to tell an expectant mother that her baby is no longer alive. The ultrasound tech with us was very sweet. She offered to take us straight to the room to see the doctor so we didn't have to go back to the waiting room.
Tom had a harder time originally than I did. I didn't cry there at all. Actually, I didn't cry that whole day. I was so busy with Morgan that I didn't have time to think about it. But I finally cried last night. I watched this video on godvine.com and just kept crying for Baby B.
Even though I am sad and I cried, I am so grateful that there is still one baby. Lots of people have miscarriages, but not a lot of people still have a baby left to be excited for. I am so happy about that!
I have another ultrasound scheduled in four weeks. Baby B should just basically dissolve and it should not effect Baby A at all. Until then, I think I will buy my own fetal doppler heart rate monitor. I am a worrier when it comes to my kids and I need to know that they are okay. I rented one with Morgan but I paid just as much as it costs to purchase one.
Other good news is that I am feeling slightly better. For the past six weeks I have had a very powerful aversion to food. Basically the only thing I want to eat is a turkey sandwich from Kneaders, which is like forever away from where I live. I have also been nauseated almost all day long, but haven't thrown up. I haven't exercised (so not normal for me) and I have lost 5 pounds. BUT, like I said, I'm feeling better and I'm not so nauseated unless I'm hungry.
I am not showing, which actually worried me even before I went to the doctor. I figured with twins I should be showing by now but my pants aren't any tighter. Anyway, that makes more sense now.
I FINALLY did a semi DIY project that I will be posting soon! Yay! And our community pool opens tomorrow. Things are looking up.
I'll post pictures of my belly soon (so at least we can compare it later on).
